When you saw the world as beautiful
then watched it tear right down the seams
Nothing is ever as beautiful
As you hoped for it to be
When You Saw The World As Beautiful
Tag: my heart
My Heart In Pieces
How do I feel whole
When my heart is scattered?
Scattered along the paths I’ve walked
Like breadcrumbs to remind me of my journey
I can look behind me
And see the pieces of my heart
The pieces that are too far to see
I can feel
Like a sonar when I close my eyes
Like blips on a radar
Yes
He is my heart
He is my home
He is my future
He sits within the walls of my chest
And he beats with synchronicity
But
Pieces of my heart are oversees
Pieces of me that I know I need
I live each day without them near
But these women are forever a part of me
And the 5 pieces of me
Cut from some of the same cloth
Like a quilt
Different parts
but beautiful
if only
We were given the chance
To stitch a stitch
And bridge the gap
but
We are still pieces
Scraps
And she
Love at first sight
I could say
From kinder
To always love from afar
Months without speaking
But words full
of every day that wasn’t spoken
And you,
Forever
Will be my other half
Getting me through my teenage years
5 pieces of your own
Cut from your cloth
How much I yearn to be a part of your journey
How much I wish I was a part
Of their world
But as it is,
Distance is against us
Time is before us
But there will always be
a you and me
And her
We do not speak now
But she was
my knowledge and my strength
As much as I was self aware before
She made me look inward and reflect
she has made me grow
I am a better woman now because of her
I am a better partner
I am a better friend
And I am a better person to myself
She might not know that she holds a piece of my heart
Even when I talked to her every day
But my life would not have been the same without her
I’ve grown in every way
Last but not least and definitely not all
She is almost my mirror
The same heart
The same loyalty
A ride or die
My one and only
Bestie on the dance floor
Partner in crime
If you were beside me
I know that you would
Rock every adventure, unquestioningly
As I live my life
On the road to my future
All these pieces of my heart
I feel them
Blips on my radar
A magnet in my gut
Pulling
Because I want you all near me
I wonder where life will take us all
I guess
Wait and see
❤ ❤ I hope you all know who you are ❤ ❤
I may be nothing but a stranger
To the girl I met today,
I want you to know,
that I feel your torment.
In the way that you evade my eyes
in the way that your eyes gloss over
with the pink tinge of a girl that has cried
from the full of the moon
till it blessed us with its smile.
I know you are hurt.
I want you to know that you are not alone.
the crackle in your voice
caused by sobbing,
a throat, exhausted by the howling
I know that you are void of all happiness.
I have been there too.
your anger is too full right now,
your sadness is more
cavernous than the oceans combined,
but I am here
my small talk;
my attempts to distract you
from the agony you are feeling,
my venture to convince you that
I am right there beside you
I am trying to let you know
I have felt it,
I have lived it more than once,
and I am alive and well today.
everything will be okay.
I know
I know that you will not believe me
just like I didn’t believe myself.
I know that there are no words,
no utterances, that will make you believe otherwise.
at least not until the anger subsides
But to the girl that I met today,
I just want to tell you how beautiful you really are
that his actions do not define you.
his deceit is not a repercussion of your worth.
the moment you heard the truth
that pit in your stomach, hollow hearted, emptiness
you feel
will not be what you will feel forever
I know
I want to embrace you
but, I am but a stranger
there is a boundary and a wall
and I know you will cringe to hear my love story
but
to the girl I met today..
you will be okay.
sincerely,
a wonderfully mended heart
Rediscovery
This was also written on September 27 2016
The end of my last relationship heightened all kinds of insecurities. “why wasn’t I good enough? why didn’t he want me?” I felt, unattractive, I felt, unwanted. When I found myself on a dance floor and it brought back the feelings of happiness, and loving myself, and meeting my partner during that phase of rediscovery, really just was the cherry on top.
Who knew
that 2 years ago
When she stumbled into your classroom
She was Fresh from a broken heart
The bottoms of her feet
Excoriated
Raw from the journey
She reached The end of a chapter
But the beginning of a dream
as she danced to your movements
And mirrored your steps
As she closed her eyes and felt
Every beat of each song
It was As if it were the compression’s
Of a stranger
Fighting to bring her back to life
Each step she took
Was a painful reminder
That she took this journey on her own
That the beginning of her dream
Was the end of a lifetime
And the death of the person she once was
With each song
Class after class
Slowly..
Slowly but, so very surely
She Danced the bottoms of her feet rough
calloused from the voyage
But now thick
Made to endure
with every instrument that she heard
She was ignited
Her reflection
More beautiful in her eyes
Because although she may not have been enough then
In your songs
On your floor
She was glowing for the first time
In her life
when you looked in her eyes
You looked at her with such yearning
Such adoration
Who knew that she had never seen that look given to her before
Although she thought she had loved and was loved
The moment you looked at her, with exactly that gaze
She felt, the most beautiful, the most loved and wanted
You didn’t know
that she had a lifetime of insecurities
Built up within her
You didn’t know
The effect your singular glance would have upon her
You had no idea that the way you placed your hand
On the sides of her waist
Was so much bigger in her heart than the action that took place
Whether you meant it then
Or not
That moment will live in her forever
that in that decaying studio
With no kitchen
And mice running within the walls
You would give her the moment that would ultimately change her life forever
That you would pull her close and look in her eyes and she would know then
That
She is beautiful to someone
Sexy to someone
Good enough for someone
To give her the confidence to believe in it
for herself
Never Silence the Madness 