In one phone call, my world came colliding down
“she will miss you” – he said
As a crackle in his voice slipped through the telephone waves
Thousands of miles away
That heartbreak only took a millisecond to deliver
Even at that moment
I felt emptiness
Yet disbelief
There is no way that the fire in her has been distinguished
There is no way that the light in her had gone dark
With closed eyes
And a deep inhale
I cannot explain what I feel inside
The closest person to me is no longer existent on this earth
My best friend is no longer just a phone call away
The only person that made me laugh from my gut is gone
She was the one and
only one
It’s preposterous the way one’s world completely gets turned inside out
Like the universe just reached in and
pulled my last laughter right from my mouth
It’s insane how my world just took a standstill
But nothing around me stopped moving
Life will not stop for a life lost
The world does not stop turning just because mine toppled from its axis
Other people still need me
although I have not much to give
My future calls me
Although all I want is some time to breathe
Responsibilities demand me
Despite the fact that my brain wishes all too much
Just not to think
I still cannot fathom that you are not just spending your days
On the other side of the world
Awake while I slumber
I cannot understand
That I will no longer see you online
And write you just to bother
I will miss the
“hey baby”
To my
“hey mama”
I do not know how to say “goodbye”
Mother
Because the world keeps spinning for me to move forward
But my heart keeps reminding me
That you are no longer moving forward with me
