Forgive me LORD

I do not think I have truly prayed to you

Since the day that you took her home

 

It is not for lack of love

It is not for lack of want

It is not for gain of hatred

It is not for gain of loss

 

Maybe I am not ready yet

For the floods to pour in

 

Maybe I am breathless

For the gasp of surprise has taken me

Hostage

 

Maybe I am at a loss for words

Because the disbelief has me gawking

 

I want you to know LORD

I still trust in this path you have laid out for me

I trust that everything you have done

Is never without reason

 

You LORD

Have my heart in your hands

And I believe you will

Mend me

Guide me

Heal me

 

But

 

Forgive me LORD

 

I know that I have not prayed since

The day she flew home to sit by your side

 

I know you have seen me try

But they were prayers of the skin and not the heart

 

I think

I am a little lost right now LORD

I am a little broken

But I love you

And I trust you

To make me whole again